If the 300 lbs weight could be lifted from my chest, if my head would stop spinning, if my last meal would continue with the digestive process, if my headache would go away, if I could stop shaking my legs and twirling my hair, and where the hell are these tears coming from.... if I could focus and slow down and just breathe... If I could just relax and not feel trapped.
Don't touch me, don't corner me, don't talk to me... This "tantrum" needs to occur. I need to get this out... get all that is inside of me out... I need to scream, cry, and I need to be left alone.
I need you to understand that this happens to me and I do not owe you a reason for it, because the truth is, I do not always understand why I am so worked up or what my triggers even are in that moment....
Don't touch me, don't corner me, don't talk to me... This "tantrum" needs to occur. I need to get this out... get all that is inside of me out... I need to scream, cry, and I need to be left alone.
I need you to understand that this happens to me and I do not owe you a reason for it, because the truth is, I do not always understand why I am so worked up or what my triggers even are in that moment....